"if
you talk about anything too much, you know, if you spend too much time defining
what you do or telling people that you're free or being defensive about your
freedom, obviously you're not free…
liberation…
you know there's a lot of movements, whether
it's like beatniks, hippies, women's lib, they're all just new political
structures, they're all new dogma, they're all just to me… we want to initiate
change but as soon as you get it you structure your change, as soon as you start
writing patterns, as soon as you write some political order you write dogma, you're
right there with catholicism, you're right there with communism... anything, any time you start stating this, this
and this, rules and regulations… you're no longer liberated, you're just
like a new political game, whether it's religious, you know, spiritual,
whatever, social…
in our point,
you spend your whole life keep breaking
on through. you just can't break on through once and think well, i've made it, i
broke through… break on through to the other side is just like going through one
door. one door isn't enough, a million doors aren't enough. you have to go
beyond, beyond one reflection, beyond the mirror, beyond beyond."
"... that doesn't sound like much, i realize, but
she was terrific to hold hands with. most girls if you hold hands with
them, their goddam hand dies on you, or else they think they have to
keep moving their hand all the time, as if they were afraid they'd bore
you or something. jane was different. we'd get into a goddam movie or
something, and right away we'd start holding hands, and we wouldn't quit
till the movie was over. and without changing the position or making a
big deal out of it. you never even worried, with jane, whether your
hand was sweaty or not. all you knew was, you were happy. you really
were."
" i used to think i was the strangest person in the world.
but then i thought, there are so many people in the world, there must be
someone just like me who feels bizarre and flawed in the same ways i do. i would imagine her and imagine that she must be out there thinking of me too.
well, i hope that if you are out there and read this and know that, yes, it’s true, i’m here and i’m just as strange as you."
i was on my way
i was on my way to tell you it's no good
i was on my way chasing my damage
i was chased, thrilled and altered
chasing my damage
because i was chased, thrilled and altered
and it raised me.